Fear

Fear. "An emotional response to a perceived threat", according to wiki.

Fear was something I always imagined little children to have. It is common for children to fear bees, sleeping, monsters, etc, but I never thought fear was apart of adult life. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe fear isn't apart of most adults lives, but it is apart of mine. I would say I am much like a child myself with fears of bees, the dark, allergies and spiders.  I try not to think about these fears or live in them but there are some days I can't get these fears out of my mind. One of the biggest fears I have is being alone. I HATE being alone. I have learned to be alone during the "normal" work hours, 7am-5pm, but I don't like it at all. I have learned to be ok with working alone in a house with 2 little boys, but I don't like it all the time. Another huge fear I have that I am still learning to cope with is fear of tornadoes. I have no idea why I am scared of this. I have never been in a tornado or known anyone who was in a bad one, and yet this is a huge fear of mine. Learning to conquer this fear is huge to me! Living in Michigan there aren't many tornadoes or tornado warnings but there seem to be A LOT of watches. Some of you might be laughing at me but that is ok.

This blog is to share who Jacob and I really are as individuals going into the ministry, and these fears are a huge part of me (although they shouldn't be). Anyways.. I know that these are just watches and I shouldn't be worried but a watch means a warning could come.. and that's what is scary. The anticipating, not knowing, wondering, the lack of control I have over the issue. I don't know if there will be a tornado or when it will occur. I can watch the radar all I want but i still won't know.

Fear of a tornado is a very good analogy to the main fear of my life, the unknown. I hate not knowing and not being able to plan. I have been working on placing everything in God's hands and have done pretty good with the big things (i.e. moving, seminary, marriage). But am continually working on the day to day worries.  I know this will be a continual sturggle and pray that one day I may be able to be rid of certain fears that I have.

Meanwhile, I have been resting and meditating on Psalm 46:1-3

     "God is our refuge and strength a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling"

Rest assured that God is always with us and we have nothing to fear. If you are like me and have many "adult" fears please stay strong and lean heavily on God our father who is always with us and has everything planned. Just like little children rely on their parents for their health, safety, and planning we to are to rely SOLELY on Christ our Heavenly Father. 




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Parents for a Weekend.

One of the ways Jacob and I have served others over the past year, is to babysit. We have watched children for the day, a night, and even over night. This past weekend Jacob and I had the opportunity to watch some of our friends children from Saturday morning until Monday morning. We had such a great time, but along the way we learned some important lessons:

1. Although we could see ourselves someday having six children, we are not ready for them yet
2. We LOVE everything about a 10 passenger van
3. We will be buying a memory foam king bed in the future (less time spent asleep, means we need higher quality sleep)
4. When cooking for 8 people, you eat what you are given
5. I am more energetic when with children
6. Jacob looses energy when watching children
7. Quiet time or naptime is a must!
8. Sometimes its good to trade bedtime duties to learn how child X may try to manipulate parent Y
9. Outings are awesome to do in the morning, being out of the house in the morning and home in the afternoon is a recipe for a good day.
10. Being on the same page for discipline, rewards, and routine, is essential to running an orderly house.

Mission Trip

Hey Everyone! A good friend of ours, who sang at our wedding, is raising money to go to Haiti this summer for 3 months. She is going to work at the Children of Israel Orphanage in Torbeck. She has a beautiful voice and is such a great women. She is currently making her first cd and will be selling it when it is finished, late December, to fund her mission trip to Haiti. Please check our her website for more information and to hear samples of her songs.


http://www.reverbnation.com/juliannesabo#

Life Goes On...

I made a goal to post once a week and I am going to stick to that goal. This past week and a half have been so busy! Although it has been busy it has been joyful busyness and learning. Since it is now officially "seasonal" time at Hobby Lobby, Jacob has been working a lot more, close to 40 hrs a week. This has been difficult for me since I am use to Jacob being home 2 days a week to get internship and seminary work done which allows for us to have time together. Working 5 days a week means he only gets 1 day off which is spent doing homework, internship or ministering to others. Having Jacob so busy with school, work, and church has been difficult for us but has taught us to treasure the time we have together. We now make sure to take a walk after dinner together to have some alone time and relax before going back to work. While Jacob is working, I have been reading some books, cleaning the house, packing for seminary and job searching. We are in continual prayer that God will provide for us and provide jobs in His time.

Just a little bit about our past week and some struggles we have had. I know the struggle of time together will continue through out seminary and I pray that God will keep us both strong and able to deal with the difficulties that will be thrown at us.